long time since i blogged..

some updates on my work stuff.. everything is going on at a super fast pace.. because they want the whole plant to be fully commissioned by the end of march next year.. in case no body know wat i talking about.. i would say its quite impossible to achieve.. so i am actualli quite stressed out.. i might lose my job when this project finishes.. shitty.. all because of the two products that went wrong..

family wise.. everything is ok.. or mayb i am just used to it.. just mi and my mom at home.. occasional appearance of my brother.. he got into the same shit again.. i am just wondering when all these would stop.. because there is no way i can throw down everything and concentrate on my work and studies.. i am having second tots on getting a degree..

anyway.. my life just revolve around work, mom, my dear frens and sweets..
After work would be either out with frens, at home having dinner or just spending time with sweets..
and i tot things were simple.. never did i expect that i would fall for him one day.. I did not expect myself to come out from the past so fast.. or mayb i had long did that.. just that i dont know..
alright.. so there we were listening to a live band and he began his story about him and another girl.. and there i was, listening really hard to wat he has to say when i realised the story was all about mi and him..

He said it takes two hands to clap so if i am willing to take his hand..

I tot of this question over and over again for a long time.. i was afraid that it would spoil our friendship should things go wrong.. But at tt point, i knew he had already taken my heart away.. Still i was too shy to do anything.. so we dragged for the longest time till he sealed my lips with a kiss..

....i melted..


so yea.. i need not say much.. all the while my time was spent with sweets.. He's been really nice and all.. i cant ask for more..

Today wasnt supposed to meet him.. but sweets came over.. i am surprised.. and i just sat in his car talking about our day.. I am a happy girl.. He just manage to do everything so right..

I like the fact that i do not need to talk much to him.. mayb cos we started off as really close frens.. Just having with him around makes me comfortable..



well.. i just cant believe it.. often the very last person u ever tot that u will fall for is just standing right in front..

Things happen unexpectedly.. =)

hehe.. long time since i blog..

Turning rusty.. havent been much lately.. just working n working..
Life's been good so far.. First week without him was a little tough.. but i got over it soon.. so now everything's good..

Basically.. every wed was wala for mi and my "darling" rh.. haha.. just sitting down listening to the band, drinking and talking.. the singer is so darn charming.. haha.. ok thats besides the point.. caught afew midnight movies with him too.. tt kuku actualli fell aslp while watching step up2!! haha..

Other than tt.. i am busy re-organising my room.. buying new furnitures.. and making my room a comfy place to stay in.. my wardrobe just came not long ago.. so excited! haha..

and i finally have my own pc.. i got the old laptop from my bro.. and rh does miracles to u.. so its working now.. thank goodness for him..

last weekend was clubbing at o bar wif agnes charlene and hc.. super fun night wif tons of ppl (an unusual sight). of cos.. some irritating ppl.. but we girls just wanna dance and have fun!!

ok.. my company's facing a difficult situation now.. the shares dropped by alot.. and a few incidents in the plant made things worse.. everyone is tight on the toes now.. so god bless mi..

well well.. other than tt.. everything's good.. i love the life now.. =)
somehow single stil has its pros.. and i am so enjoying it now..

They say a leopard doesnt change its spots..

I totalli agree..

Ytd i made a final decision.. Had a clean cut break with him..

My friends tell mi they saw him outside with some other girls.. not 1 but always diff ones..

I knew i had to just let go..

I am happy i did.. I do not wish to settle for someone like him just bcos i like him..

and i am confident to say my heart is already dead..

I will move on.. =)

Long time since i stepped into here to make a posting..

Yesterday i met up wif Charmaine after so long.. always nice to talk to her..
Went shopping around at JP and met up wif her parents at Esprit..
Tt sweet girl got mi a coach keyring from China.. =)

Anyway, I feeel frustrated at myself.. Nth seems to be right..
Lotsa things to be done yet so little time..

I cant believe i feel this way, the spark betw the both of us is gone.. I dont know what happened..
Mayb we are just too comfortable to improve on the situation..

Had a small talk wif him.. we didnt argue, thankfully..
We are not on cold war or anything but something for us to think about..
Whether we want to improve and continue the r/s or just let it die..

Yesterday i got burnt by the live wire of my hair dryer and tt stupid hair dryer caught fire, short circuited my whole house..
Normally i would be desperately looking for him, and mayb crying to him bcos i am scared..

But it took mi a long time just to pick up the phone and drop him a msg..

I have a feeling that i am starting to keep everything to myself once again.. Its sickening and frustrating that everytime i am the one initiating to improve this r/s.. real tired..

Supposed to meet him today after work.. but i think i will just avoid him.. not intentionally but i need to know wats going on in my mind..

Certainly, he dont feel special to me just before.. and i dont miss him as much as before..

I have one thing to announce!!

My fav twister fries are back!!! hehe.. i just had two big packets of them today.. I am a happy girl.. nvm the fact that i am left all alone at home with nothing to do on sat night.. lol..

ok.. some updates to round up the past few weeks' activities..
This year i received quite a few christmas gifts.. surprisingly..

Company Dnd
Went to my company's DND at Orchard Hotel.. I won the 9th prize! Osim ibike.. lol.. Pu came all the way down just to take a look at the dressed up me.. =) Talked to him awhile, took some pictures and he went for work.. after tt was phuture wif agnes..

Charlene's 21st birthday
Days before i was frantically shopping for her gift and getting sth special for her and zhen. Bought the Limited christmas edition CK's Euphoria parfume for her and 2 Forever Friends cushion for each of us.. and i made brownies for all of them..
Basically fun time spent.. but i realised i can no longer stay up all night like last time.. i ko at around 1 plus for both nights.. so lousy! But anyway i am glad she enjoyed herself. =)

Cousin Gary's wedding
His wedding is so so so romantic!! held at the Swissotel Merchant Court..
and its the first time in like 8 years, i finally saw my Aunt Jane and Uncle John from Wales..
I really missed my aunt alot.. the feeling is so indescribable.. when she embrace mi.. i nearly cried.. She's someone i hold dearly to my heart.. a pity i can only see her once every few years..
I am very sure i meant something to her too.. bcos she gives the special treatment to me only.. hehe.. anyway.. i was like the limelight there.. -_- cos all my aunts havent seen mi for years.. and every single of them was bringing me around to "show off" to their friends..
talked to my Aunt Jane thru out the dinner..
I realli can say i realli realli miss her so so much..
tt day itself i told my mom that i wanna spend christmas with her..

Christmas
spent my christmas eve wif the gang at ktv.. fun.. =) but tired.. haha.. i did last min shopping.. shopping for Aunt Jane, Uncle John, Aunt Anne and my mom's christmas gift..
I got my mom a necklace.
Aunt Anne, a leather jewellery box.
Aunt Jane, i bought a framless photo frame and handmade it.. design it with our photos i took at the wedding.. pity i didnt take a photo of it.. cos everyone said its nice.. =)
Uncle John, a set of belt and buckle.
Christmas day, i went up to Aunt Anne's place with him cos Aunt Jane and Uncle John was staying wif her. My mom and dad were already there. We all had lunch and my boy bought log cake up.

This year,
I got a psp from him..
a box of really nice cookies from dearest charmaine and caiping..
a personalised keychain and a bear tin of famous amos from zhen..
a handmade hp strap and a heart badge from charlene..
a cute mirror from lingzi..
a set of white musk body lotion and shower gel from agnes..
a set of bubble bath and bath salts from simon's wife..
a shit model from edward.. lol..
a miniature christmas tree from huizhen..
a box of chocolates from yan ling..
n of cos..
a set of pearl necklace from my bro..
a red packet from my Aunt Jane and Uncle John..
Thank you everyone.. =)
I of cos did sth for these nice ppl.. handmade.. =)
Got dkny perfume and hanvanians slippers for him..

the Best Christmas gift?
Its that i spent the day wif Aunt Jane and all.. She's gonna leave this coming week.. I think i will cry quite badly.. Its gonna be another 5 or 8 years till i see her again.. She's so sweet.. She told mi to save up on the air tickets to wales, and she will take care of the rest for mi.. even giving mi pocket money to spend there.. and whispering only for mi.. =)
I told myself in my mind.. i am gonna save up.. I am going to wales to look for her in 2009.. (cos 2008 holds alot of vacation for mi already.. Bangkok, Redang and Taiwan!)

New Year 2008
ok.. i went to the SILOSO BEACH PARTY !! with him and charlene..
and it totally rocks.. DJ Shy was real good.. I think singapore clubs should employ her!!
The moment she spins, everyone started crowding round the stage area to dance.. so its from 8 all the way till 1130, we were dancing to her music..
as usual there were lots of black ppl.. and crazy stunning ppl.. and this irritating guy who scared mi off cos he suddenly came up and danced super close.. F**k him..

ok.. basically the updates are over..

Happy new year everyone!!

Had a discussion with him lately.. actually more like an argument.. was quite heated up till both of us nearly gave up.. cos its over the same issues again..

But he kind of enlightened mi on my behaviour.. i need to be more tolerant on this issues, he was right afterall. All this while, i didnt realise that i play a part in it.. but now i do.. so yea, after tt talk, i think we moved onto a new level..

right now, i realli am being more open and our r/s is no longer so tight and stress.. =)

well..

he's out now, leaving mi all alone in his place.. he bought his itouch so i am playing wif it now!

i hope to get a psp soon.. so i can be occupied when he's not around..plus i realli wanna play loco roco! haha.. anyone has cheap lobangs!

and..

being so bored.. i drew this..

haha! and i set as his wallpaper!! muahaha.. evils..

I am back.. =)

I just spent the last few weeks organising my room, clearing out old furnitures, putting in new furnitures.. and not to say spent a whole lot of money.. but its all worth it.. cos i really love my room now.. =)

Wednesday was his birthday.. Nth much this year cos we both agreed on not to spend lavishly on each other.. so i just bought a small cake from Angie the choice and i did a card for him.. All within an hour.. as i was pretty busy wif my work for the past few weeks..

Brought him to Coastes at Sentosa to try the pizza and relax by the beach. Followed by a dinner treat at Sushi Tei.. At night was partying at Plush with the usual clique.. Plush is so much like Momo!!! n i am seriously loving it alot!! I think it will be my next hang out place.. The decor is nice as usual with cages in the middle for daring ppl to dance haha..

Not much in the mood to dance tt night, mayb i am more used to a smaller grp now.. But its still fun! =)

Today, spend the whole day at home organising my wardroube while Yanling n Huizhen was messing things up in my kitchen.. They are baking brownies, cookies and making cheesecake at my place.. of cos i did help them out cos they dont really know how to do it.. lol.. =p
Cleared out some of my clothes for them..

Some things happened at home, kind of feel dull and i might not have free time to myself anymore.. Sometimes i always wonder why such things have to happen to me.. But of cos its my life so i have to do something to improve on it.. As usual i wont be pull down by this.. On a sad note.. my mom's health is deteriorating.. Haiz.. and my brother isnt helping the least at all..

Tml there would be a talking session with him.. I hope i get the message clear into his bloody head if not i will be damn pissed i am gonna throw him out from the house!

ok.. its a little extreme but i just wanna vent my anger out.. Grrr..

Lastly, I want my hair to grow FASTER!! =)

hehe..
just back.. met up wif Rebec, Meow, Dan n Kc.. Bec did a really beautiful scrap book for my bday gift! Thanks alot girl.. =) i can see the amt of effort she put into it.. had dinner at pepper lunch.. then went to catch the movie "The Ferryman"

Its about this man who cheated death over a thousand of years.. how he does it? He transfer his soul from bodies to bodies using a knife! So whenever he sees a body that he likes, he just have to stab the body using tt knife.. ya... like tt.. very bloody n gory.. so ppl who like to see tt.. ok go for it.. lol..

Nice meeting up wif them.. =) Yesterday, i met up wif Agnes, Yenling n Karin at Vivo then mi and Agnes went into sentosa.. i brought her to Fish Reflexology.. as her birthday gift.. afterwards we had our foot massage.. hehe.. nice place.. great company.. =) She and lz got mi the bag that i wanted to get for mths.. Thanks alot girls..
Afterwards was Lucas Ah ma's 80th birthday celebration at the Jurong Spring CC.. Even the PAP GRC ppl came.. -_- haha.. Then both of us went to catch a midnight movie.. The Seeker.. Not as nice as i expected.. But its great.. Cos its just the two of us.. simply yet fulfilling.. =)

Last fri was department Teambuilding day at sentosa.. Had lotsa fun tt day! Running about.. I was in the same team wif Simon, Apol, Jason, Shawn, Rahman, Annette.. Hehe.. Simon said he dont want to be in the same group as mi ever again cos i keep running non-stop. He says my stamina like never ending.. Well, when u have fun, and u want to win, u will do the best ma.. hehe..

Dinner was at Rasa Sentosa Resort, International Buffet.. Yummi! But not quite up to my expectations though.. lol..

Ok.. Time to head to bed.. more updates soon! =)

ok.. i am back..

some tots are running thru my mind now..

Recently, one of my close frens just broke up wif his gf.. i find myself thinking if i should step out since i dont see a future.. Mayb i am old enough.. i know wat i want in a partner..

While most couple have problems bcos they keep quarreling..

But i feel that the thing standing betw us is his lifestyles, his way of handling r/s be it bgr or frens..

U definitely wont see mi settling down wif someone whu always drinks till late at night, and i have to stay home to wait for him to get back..

and i dont want to be worrying all day and night if he has another girl outside.. it happened before and i dont want it to happen again..

i found out more abt myself.. i can live without a guy in my life.. so in a blunt way, i told him i can do well with or without u in my life..

But i dont mean anything now.. i just want to let him know now.. bcos one day i might just get fed up and walk away without saying any word..

havent blog for my bday..
lol
Thanks to those whu remembers! =)

This year was simple..
One of the days was spent wif pu n agnes.. he treated us to sushi tei.. and got us little cakes from bakerzin.. this fellow nv fails to brighten my day.. so sweet.. i am so touched.. =)

n then was chill out time wif yenling, rh and agnes at No. 5.. chicken wings was really nice!

cut my cake at rh's place.. lol.. and had a wonderful wif charmaine.. wanted to go wala.. but too bad.. both of us were too tired.. =) she got mi a beautiful treble clef necklace.. thanks alot my dear..

Lucas bought mi to shahskin restaurant for the famous beef.. indeed really damn delicious.. afterwards was Resident's Evil..

Met up wif lingzi. Simple dinner and chit chat plus some shopping. She made a video for mi.. was really touched..

Met up wif my darlings, zhen n charl.. spent the day at charl's place.. supposed to be by the poolside but too bad its was raining.. so we chatted and orders pizzas.. dinner time at ichiban boshi and then a mass meet up wif wee, spencer, step, jr and kat.. the girls plus hc got me a bag and a really nice necklace! =)

and not to forget my colleagues gave mi a surprise at the chalet.. they bought a cake to celebrate my bday.. =)

simple and yet memorable

Ok.. After tt horrible friday, things got slightly better. He called and tried to calm mi down. Because i was crying quite badly, I just wanted a little bit of coaxing from him and i will feel better. But he didnt do anything. So i complained to him, why is it that when he was feeling down, i had to be there to pull up his spirits, why cant he do the same for mi?

I said sth that kinda worried him. Although i feel that its really nth, i just said to vent out the frustrations in me. I told him i am sick of my life now. He got all worried, rising his voice asking me not to think tt way. And there i was, on the other side, trying to figure all why he got so anxious. I realised that he tot i was having suidical tots.. -_- diaoz..

So, at the end of the call, i was laughing. Lolx. He being so sweet wanted to make breakfast for me the next day, bcos according to him, it can definitely brighten my day.

The next day, Sat, I woke up and went over thinking he would be all ready. Sadly, he wasnt. Instead he was fretting over wat to cook cos he went to the market and bought everything that he could think of. Haha. So i helped him out alittle.

Our final products, French toasts, Hotdog omelette, hotdogs, red beans and cheesy chicken chop. (as breakfast). Packed things up and went over to sentosa for our little picnic. As the sun was burning hot tt day, within 2 hours, we gave up and went to wash up.

Afterwhich, we went over to Underwater World! I was so excited bcos the last time i went there i was onli a small kid. There's a new area for stringray feeding. Kind of fascinating, i nv seen stringrays behaving in tt kind of manner and i have never seen a stringray open its mouth!

and then the next attraction is the super duper gigantic fish! its kind of frightening cos its really unbelievably huge! lol.. I love the Angels of the Sea. Tried to capture some shark pictures, unforunately, a failure.

After tt saga, we went to the fish Reflexology where you are supposed to dip ur feet into a pond filled with small turkish fishes that will biiitttee at ur feeeetttt's dead skins.. hehe.. Nice ambience.. There's even a gentle pond and an aggressive pond. Very weird and ticklish feeling.. lol.. But after awhile, its quite nice.

The end results, i feel lighter and my soles are definitely smoother. Worth a try.. I'm gonna bring my mom there one day to try it out.. hehe..

ok.. charlene complained that i always dont update my blog.. sometimes its realli plain laziness to on the com and sometimes its too busy..

cant really rem the exact chain of events. But its always working, meeting up wif my frens, not to mention him as well. I realise mayb working shift is a good thing. I find that there's more time. lol.

ok.. I am actually quite unhappy these few days. Totally in a bad mood. Charmaine's grandfather passed away, so her party on sat was cancelled and there were some problems bcos i have already ordered her bday cake from her.
The stupid cake company ( Angie the choice ) wans mi to pay 50% of the amt if i cancelled it. They made such a big huha, plus their service was really bad. Imagine i was really busy at work, and i still had to take this kind of nonsense from them.

So i decided to call the hq. The receptionist being new routed me to another outlet instead. I was really mad. So i demanded that they do something abt it. In the end, they decided to give me vouchers for the full amt, But the voucher is a one time usage. So lame.. -_-


Plus these few days, work was terrible. I really cant work wif Siva. I cant work wif someone that have a bad working attitude. Tests that took me mayb 2 hours to complete, takes him one whole day. The other day, I just got alot of files over to segregate all the worksheets properly so that we know which one are the actual copies. That F *cking guy messed up everything the next day. I was so friggin mad! I decided to wash my hands off him. He really made work time totally unbearable.

and it so happened that my commissioning enginner is the extreme opposite of him. I really think both of them are driving mi nuts.


Really totally in a bad mood.

n i just had an argument wif my boy. so sickening. he just had to screw things up at the very wrong time. and knowing that i am in such a bad mood, he just did nth.

n ya, i cried myself to slp just now.

I think i might be suffering from some depression illness. ha/

one whole week of short updates...
I got my Sony W580!! lalala.. i am a happy girl now.. hehe.. but of cos it means i am broke lo.. haiz..

ok.. last week was a busy week.. Now i am working 8 to 5 but somehow i just find my time not sufficient? why like that..

Monday after work i went over his place cos i wanted to catch tt 9 oclock show on scv. Lol.

Tuesday i went home to acc my mom awhile before going back to his place to watch tt show.

Wednesday was meeting up wif my sec sch frens. Had dinner at marche at vivo and then a chill out session at gloria jean's. After tt i headed back to his place as its near.

Thursday i met up wif my darlings. Headed down to town for dinner. Took neoprints lol. n we went to catch 1408. Lame show! don't ever go to watch..

Friday i met up wif agnes, lz n rh for dinner at chinatown n some shopping session. Being so mountain-turtle, i dont even know where is people's park. lol.
Da Bao some porridge, frog leg n ba lu ku home for dear to eat. Agnes came over wif me, bcos i promised to acc her down to st james.

Sat met up wif charlene to sentosa. Afterwards, we headed down to chinatown wif lucas to walk walk and to see my leg. Went home early, as i was quite tired.

Today was family day at sentosa. Boring time there and the sun was super duper hot. Me n dear went to vivo to shop and catch a movie before rushing home as he needs to book in. I really really cant stand his boss, some how or rather, i feel that he is someone not organised n responsible enough. Lazy to go into details.

Gonna be a whole week i cant see him n am missing him right now. Poor elaine, Its gonna be 4 mths before she gets to see ivan. I think i would cry real bad if he goes away too. Girl, u got to be strong ok! We will be here for u ok.. =) Hugs..

ok.. i havent blogged for a super long time..

Lets stay from the National day! The night before all of us went down to zouk, and i finally realised why ppl dont like it there. The crowd is damn rude, they simply dont know how to say sorry or excuse me.. nvm abt the unhappy part.
The next day me n dear went for the NDP ! cos he got the tickets.. Yipee! First time there lehz.. so mountain turtle. We went marina area early and bought food, i bought the donuts from suntec.

No queue, n there's new flavours and its stil so tasty! =)

So mi being an excited little girl hurried him to go over fast. Overall, its a nice experience, except for the going home part. It sucks as always.


Next, we went to fireworks frm Spain! not very impressive i would say. Plus some rude ppl around.

I am trying to cut down my clubbing! =) its been 3 weeks. Haha.

Anyway, my work is still alright, although it gets alittle frustrating at times. But overall, i would say i have nice colleagues. However, i still miss the times at ITS n i am gonna meet up wif Rebec on this coming sat! yeay! gonna celebrate her bday wif her.. =)

Things wif him are ok. Mayb my perservance works, I just sit down and have a nice talk with him. I made him understand all the things he did was hurting me. and although i know he's improving, but i need some reassurances. This time on sth more serious, money issues.

I am glad he actually was on the same direction as me. He too cut down on clubbing, bcos he finally realised thats where all the problems rised from. n so, he is spending all his time on me. I am glad that i did not give up on him. =)

However, i am worried for some of my frens. Apparently, they are experiencing some difficulties in their love life. Especially zhen.
If u see this girl, i hope u dont lock urself at home k.. If u are sad, we will always be here for u, i believe u know that. It always worries mi that when i ask, u say u are ok but i know u are not. I hope u will let us reach out to u k.. =) love u..

I think i must be quite unlucky to some extent bcos the commissioning engineer incharge of the centrifudge is an indian! n the ppl in my team consists of all non-chinese, 3 including tt engineer are indian (they all came from India), 1 is phillipines and mi being the only chinese.

I am trying not to be racist. But apparently, everyone including the contractors and esp dont like the enginner. Bloody kuku. Its onli my second week, he just throw a whole commissioning test to be operated by myself. When the fact that i havent even been through the proper training of the DCS system and i dont even have my own userid password. When i told him tt, he says its ok. He wants mi to be of the same standard as them by the end of the mth. -_-"""

nvm abt tt.. He being an engineer actually taught the IA students the wrong system flow!!!! I was so skeptical abt his knowledge n abilities la.. Cindy, one of the IA students, came and asked if the flow diagram she drawn as right. One look i knew it was wrong. I mean, common sense tells u that the product have to go thru the centrifudge before going into the dryer ma. Why the heck would u send one whole mixture of mother-liquid and the crystals into the dryer before separation in the centrifudge?!! so dotz..

I decided that i should pick up everything by myself, be it that i have look up for info myself, i will do it rather than ask tt engineer. Sorry for ranting on such issues but it just makes mi wonder how did he get into tt seat.

Anyway, Wed after work, i went to meet up wif agnes n pu at orchard. Irritating both went for some durian puff session before i came. lol.. Lucky the smell was no longer in their mouth. Had dinner at food republic then we headed to BigO for some cakes session. Crazy photo taking began. n then its the snatching of cakes, actualli i was the one whu started it. lol.

Thursday i was supposed to meet up wif zhen for dinner but in the end i went to look for my darling cos she was supposed to meet up wif shirun too. (tt Lucas Chan wants mi to call him darling cos he feels that the term "dear" wasnt sincere enough -_-"") I couldnt do tt in real life so in blog, that would do. Haha. We went to have dinner then went back to slp.. zzzz

Friday, after work, i went home, had dinner wif my mama.. slack n watch some tv wif her before rushing out to meet my ex-colleagues at JE. Mi, Bec, Chua, Birdie, Ah Hock, Uncle Ken n his wife went for ktv sessions. Rebec updated mi on wats going-on in Fobas. No though i have left tt place, but unknowingly, when i heard of wat they had been thru, i just felt a sharp pain la. I dont know why i feel this way. I still cant believe ah chong did tt. n I think Jane must have been really hurt. I just feel so sad for them. haiz..

After ktv, i went down to st james to meet up wif the usual ppl as Zijian's gonna go back Aust on Sunday. ok, some unhappy things happened there. Shall not mention. n some things left mi feeling speechless, not knowing how to react. Anyway, music was alright. Lucas came afterwards, fully drunk, doing silly things. I had a hard time getting him back home. He vomitted and started to ko on the floor without washing up. I had to drag him up n force him to take a shower. I was quite frustrated bcos its realli difficult to take care of him when he is drunk. But being a nice gf, i decided to get him settled down first before i wash up. lol! i ko immediately.

Today was supposed to go east coast wif the girls, but i gave tt up. Bcos he was feeling not good. Wanted to go down town to meet up wif elaine and charlene but couldnt too. Cos he doesnt want to go anywhere today, so i just stayed at home keeping him company.

I need more slp!! lol.. i am tired!!

These few days at work are just SOP readings n traingings. I being someone who cant sit still began loithering around the plant side myself. Haha. Work was relatively relaxing. Of cos, thats becos i am a new-comer. Things wif him now are smooth-sailing, which i am glad. =) n Rebecca Lie Ya Ting finally msg mi, i tot she forgotten abt mi already! haha.. I was quite sad when i received Eve's n Kc's msg but not hers!!! Irritating girl, always busy wif tt doctor!! haha..

n i just read one of my fren's blog.. it just suddenly brought to my attention that i am facing the same thing..

I know i have changed since the very day i stepped out into the working society. In a bad way, mayb. But as some of my frens suggest i am no longer as cute as i used to be, no longer as approachable as i used to be, no longer as friendly as i used to be. All in all, in simple terms, i have grown up, sadly.

Its really not so anticipating as wat i tot when i am a small kid.

n during my days at ITS, i really can see why a bad job could result in a change of human's character. It happened on me. n I know who are those who stood by me. I know in my heart, although u ppl dont show it out, but u really care. Of cos there were those who just stood by n say things behind my back. I dont blame them, bcos ya, mayb they just cant tell mi straight in the face.
So i really do appreciate all those who came n talk to me. =) bcos for those whu know mi well enough, they know i appreciate honest friendships.

I can only say i have tried but i think it cant work out, so i will just stop here for the time being.
Somehow, i realised, how come everyone's being given a second chance, except mi. Friendship is also just like a r/s, it takes both hands to clap, it cant be always mi wanting to spend some quality time wif the other party n yet the other party just wait for mi to do sth.

I am taking things easy now. No, i am not angry, mayb a little disappointed. But thats ok, things will get better some day, i hope.

I went to my new company on monday! n till now, i am just so satisfied with my company. Its so welfare can! and my department ppl are so nice lo.. seriously, u cant find anyone that is hostile or unfriendly. I am so fortunate.

I report to work at 8 in the morning. So normally my team would do some read-up or paper work till 9. Afterwhich, we go up to the plant. They performing the OCT while me bein new, do the lines tracing. Then till 1130, its lunch break, all the way till 1. Up the plant we go, till 3 its break time. Then some reading of SOPs, and its 5 ! Time to go home.

So u see. Life is pretty much good there. They have alot of welfare activities for u. Sports, yoga, blah blah blah. Goodddiieee.. haha..

One thing i like abt the company is the toilets! haha.. the toilets are like 3 to 4 times much bigger than those at ITS. They have a section for toilet, a section for bathing and a section for changing plus our lockers. n their lockers are 3 times bigger than wat i used to have. =) n the best part is that they have laundry services! Everday, the auntie would come collect the dirty PPE and after washing, she would stack them all at the clothing shelves. Each PPE, T-shirt, Polo-tees and towels are all personalised. All of them have our name on it. So ppl wont mistaken take yours.

Love it! haha..

ok.. i am generally happy with my job now. Things betw me and him are ok. I spent the last weekend with him. Initially, he was supposed to help out with his fren in moving house. But, in the end, he just didnt. He fly their aeroplane, just for mi! I am a happy girrl.. I think i deserve to be whack la.. just a little thing can make mi happy. -_- ok on a slight note, i still miss my colleagues at ITS especially Rebecca Lie Ya Ting! =))

Counting down to fri..

Its the last day in tt hell place.. yahooO!!

A quick update of wat happened over the last weekend..



The whole of sat was spent with pupu n agnes. Supposed to go into sentosa BUT it was raining, so sad.. so i went down to vivo to look for them for some shopping session. Bought a bag and then headed home to rest awhile before going down town to meet them again. This time for transformers!! It's a super brillant show. The graphics are nice, i give them 5 stars! After which, we head down to zouk to look for karin and yenling. The main hall turn out to be spinning trance music so we went down to st james instead. Hq came down to look for us after wards. That night sucks cos the music is too slow. Totally no mood to dance plus i had a bad tummy ache so we went home early. And the best part, i slip and fell, i strained my toe.



Saturday, he contacted me. Talked awhile on the phone, meeting him on sunday before the dinner.



Sunday, my toe was hurting like hell, still i chose to ignore it. Met up wif zhen at holland to buy a cake for part time. After which, was dinner. Quite a number turned up, part time, mi, him, lz, zhen, charl, hc, wee, beng, rh, cindy, jr, veron, spenc, stef. After dinner, was ktv at clementi partyworld. Me and lz decided to leave early. He wanted to send mi to the bus stop. So we talked on the way there and in the end, he said he just cant bear to have this cold war and ignore mi. No doubt i was delighted that he said that, still i am skeptical that the same old thing might happen again. But i rem that rh once told me, if i really know wat i want, i should try to resolve the issues betw mi and him. Break-up is just another way of saying u dont wanna try anymore or that there's no more feelings involved.



He wants me to control his clubbing ways and his finances. Seriously, i dont know how to do so. But i will try.



Monday, work as usual. There's nothing for me to do as i am onli guiding Gary to do ashing and elements. So i monitored him the whole day and taught him all the short cuts that i used. Explained to him how to look for any errors in the icp calibration and of cos the specifications of our samples. I went home at 5! The first time i ever went home at 5 on a monday ever since i started shift.. Went for dinner with Terence at west mall, Sakae.. yummi.. After which he sent me home.



Tuesday, Rebec's sick.. n Edwen's not coming. Was relatively busy but still managable. Of cos off at 5 also.. hehe.. Today i am off at 5 too! so very happy.. hehe..

we didnt meet each other all the way till tuesday..

I was quite angry that he didnt do wat he promised.. he said he would meet mi before i go to work as he was having half day.. ya well, he didnt.. msg not replied, phonecalls not picked up.. i was worried sick.. The moment i reached my work place, he called. He wants me to go over after my work to tok things out.. Meow scolded me sayin that i give in too much, i should play hard to get.. I dont know.. mayb i just want to know wat is he thinking abt..

n so after my work we talked below his block.. he was thinking exactly the same thing as me.. whether to let go or continue.. his reason being, he dont know why he keeps repeating the same mistake, n he dont want to have another round of serious argument wif mi.. n mi, i am tired of arguing and i just feel he isnt willing to give his all in this r/s..

in the end, no conclusion was made as we both needed to think more.. and so now i am not contacting him, vice versa.. i am still thinking.. no answers yet.. just seeing if i can survive without him.. if i can, i am letting go.. He knows he has changed alot since we started out.. n i dont like the him now.. he knows he still wants to go out n have fun.. I will just let him do tt..

one more week to my new job.. i am excited. but sad at the same time, cos i know i will be leaving my goodie colleagues soon.. really gonna miss them so.. well, kc resigned and ytd yanni said she's gonna resigned today.. seriously wonder wats gonna happen then.. Rebec pls take care..

I am on afternoon shift again..

quite sian, but in 2 more weeks i will be done n over with it! yeay..
spent the whole sat with agnes.. morning was sentosa.. I was pretty tired due to the lack of sleep the past week.. I guess it really affected me quite alot.. The fact that we are like strangers really kind of kills me..

Sentosa was great.. relacing n all.. took my mind of him. period.. I had to return home for dinner while she had to meet up wif her fren for a movie.. so i got home rest. sat in my bed thinking abt everything.. I am trying to get an answer for myself, whether is it bcos of a moment's anger or is it that i am really tired. lots of msg sent out but no reply, makes me quite mad.

Anyway, i took a cab down to orchard to pick agnes up and off we go phuture! n since the music there isnt realli nice, we hop by zouk to take look since we both havent been to zouk on sat nights.. It was a blast la.. I missed Momo.. both of us totalli enjoyed ourselves.. in the midst of it, something unpleasant happened.. Hq came down to look for us then send us back..

Sunday was supposed to acc my mom to the temple but i woke up too late.. lol.. I stayed at home the whole day, i start to space out for no reason. night time rh called n told me abt wat happened.. how come it seems that all the couples around me are facing difficulties now.. makes me feel really negative..

well, he said he will call after the saf day, but he didnt.. I knew it.. He always dont keep up to the promises he made to me.. Mayb i have came up wif a decision.. just not sure if my heart will also follow the decision.